Alexa's View

"I know it's weird but I wanted to invite you to my wedding. I totally get it if you don't wanna come though." Y/n says.

"I'll be there." I say.

"Really?" Y/n asks.

"Yeah, I've moved on." I say.

I'm doing just fine, now it's over
I've been moving on and living my life

"Okay, great. I'll mail you an actual invitation." Y/n says.

I nod and she walks away.

Fuck. Am I seriously about to watch my ex-girlfriend get married?

But occasionally I lose composure
And I can't get you out of my mind

Time Skip

Y/n and I broke up because I didn't want to marry her. She needs to get marry to stay in the country but I wasn't ready. 8 months later, she's getting married. And I think she's genuinely in love.

If I could go back, I would marry her. It's almost as if no one is ever ready until someone takes their spot.

If I could go back in time
I'd do things differently, yeah, I wouldn't think twice

I've tried dating but the relationship doesn't work out like how it did with Y/n.

I distract myself, think of someone else
But every now and then you remind me

My phone dings and I grab it.

A text from literally everyone but Y/n.

It's only when I'm lying in bed on my own
And I wake up and I don't see your name on my phone

"Hey." Y/n says answering the w phone.

"You wanna come over? I'm lonely." I say.

"Yeah, give me a few minutes." Y/n says.

It's in the moments where I think that I'm better alone
That's when I remember, that's when I remember

I think the biggest mistake I've ever made was not marrying Y/n.

Every time I walk past your house in the rain
And I tell myself that you were the biggest mistake

"Fuck." I mumble.

And just when I think I'm finally doing okay
That's when I remember, that's when I remember

Time Skip

"I really don't think Y/n wanted to marry you for the right reasons. You had only dated for 5 months and she had just got a letter saying her time in the US was almost up." Lucas says.

"She only wanted to marry you to stay in the country." Lucas says.

"Don't worry about Y/n or anything if that. Focus on you and finding someone who actually wants to marry you for the right reasons." He says.

My friends tell me I shouldn't listen
To the voices that go round in my head

"So I shouldn't go to the wedding?" I ask.

"Fuck no. Delete her fucking number." He says.

So I try to delete all the memories

"Oh, want all of that." He says staring at a guy.

I smile and he gets up.

"I want all of this." Y/n says.

I smile and kiss her.

But you're really hard to forget

I can't believe I told Y/n no.

If I could go back in time
I'd do things differently, I wouldn't think twice

"What a surprise." Max says sitting beside me.

"Did you put a tracker on me?" I ask.

"No, I just have a built in Bad-Bitch-Finder." Max says.

"Did you just call me a bitch?" I ask.

"A bad bitch so it cancels out." Max says.

"Ah." I say.

"Oh, c'mon. Just one night." Max says.

"You're 27, I am 32." I say.

"And you still got it." Max says.

I smile and he smirks.

"Let's go." I say.

He smiles and I get up.

Max isn't gonna get my mind off my issues but it'll help... I guess.

I distract myself, think of someone else

Time Skip

It didn't help at all, I just thought about how much I missed Y/n the entire time.

But every now and then you remind me

Y/n hasn't called me asking me why I didn't show up to her rehearsal dinner.

It's only when I'm lying in bed on my own
And I wake up and I don't see your name on my phone

She really could care less if I was there.

It's in the moments where I think that I'm better alone

"You have to be there. I won't accept the award if you're not there." Y/n says.

That's when I remember, that's when I remember

Y/n's View

"I'm just gonna go check on her." I say.

I walk out and hear Isabelle talking.

"At least you have Y/n." Chloe says as I peak around the corner.

"I don't want Y/n. I'm just tired of dating assholes. She's in it for citizenship, I'm in it for money and loyalty." Isabelle says.

I slowly back away and I bump into someone.

"Where you going?" Austin asks.

"I can't marry her, this was a mistake." I say.

And I tell myself that you were the biggest mistake
And just when I think I'm finally doing okay

I run outside and catch my breath.

"I can't breathe." I say falling in the ground.

"You walked 10 feet." Alexa says laughing.

That's when I remember, that's when I remember

I need to go see Alexa.

I'm missing you (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)

Time Skip

I knock on the door and Alexa opens it.

You (I'm missing, I'm missing)

"I miss you." I say.

I'm missing you

"I should've just waited until you were ready." I say.

You

"What about your fiancée?" Alexa asks.

It's only when I'm lying in bed on my own

"I'll never love her the way I love you." I say.

And I wake up and I don't see your name on my phone

"I'll never love anyone the way I love you." I say.

'Til the moments where I think that I'm better alone

Alexa smiles and hugs me.

That's when I remember, that's when I remember

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