Lose You To Love Me

Alexa's View

"My name is Y/n Y/l/n and this is the Wired autocomplete interview." Y/n says.

"Is Y/n Y/l/n from Mexico?" Y/n reads.

Y/n laughs and smiles.

"This is a common misconception. I am from New Mexico — Albuquerque, New Mexico. I snuck out of my parents' house and caught a flight to LA when I was 17." Y/n says.

"Is Y/n Y/l/n dating Alexa Demie?" Y/n reads.

"People usually get excited when they find out when two characters date and so do the actors. Um, no, but we used to. We actually broke up about two weeks ago. It was one of the best 3 months of my life. We just didn't want the same things." Y/n says.

Didn't want the same things... It was nothing close to that.

"We can get married, but a house, adopt, have grandkids — all that jazz." Y/n says.

You promised the world and I fell for it

"You should join us." Sydney says.

"I'm getting dinner with Y/n tonight, sorry." I say.

I put you first and you adored it

I was a deer staring at her headlights.

I lost my mom because of her. Y/n doesn't care who she hurts, as long as she gets what she wants.

Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn

"I lost my mom because of you. You made me hate her on purpose, didn't you?!" I say.

Sang off-key in my chorus

"I'm not sure." Y/n says.

'Cause it wasn't yours

"Isn't it strange how Y/n doesn't want you talking to no one but her? You had to sneak just for us to have this conversation." Zendaya says.

I saw the signs and I ignored it
Rose-colored glasses all distorted

"It is what it is." I say.

Set fire to my purpose
And I let it burn

That same night I broke up with Y/n, she went to a party and paparazzi saw her all over some girl.

You got off on the hurtin'
When it wasn't yours, yeah

Y/n will say anything to save her ass.

Time Skip

"Here." I say handing the script to Y/n.

"I'm not reading this." Y/n says.

"What?" I ask.

"We have a real connection we don't have to act. We know what the scene is supposed to be like, we just gotta do it naturally." Y/n says.

We'd always go into it blindly

"It's been 2 years since you've been in the show. How are you? How have you been?" Austin says.

"I'm really good. Cut some strings and some baggage fell off." I say.

I needed to lose you to find me
This dancing was killing me softly
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah

"Does that baggage happen to be... Y/n?" Austin asks.

"Hmm, you've gotten smarter than the last time I was here." I say.

Austin stares at me and Daniel laughs.

"Y/n is the root of all my problems. She is a lying hypocrite who doesn't care who she hurts." I say.

To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah

"I'm not mad, I'm just disappointed. When someone says they can give you the world, that's when you think it's getting serious." I say.

To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah

"And no matter how much I hate her, I still have to pretend like I'm in love with her during filming." I say.

To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah

"So you broke up with her? Why did you? Did you realized that something was off?" Austin asks.

"When she started coming home later and later. When she started being protective of her phone. When she started doing stuff behind my back. There were dozens of red flags that I ignored because I loved her — I wanted it to work out." I say.

To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me

"#TeamAlexa." Daniel says.

We all laugh and I smile.

Time Skip

I gave my all and they all know it

Then you tore me down and now it's showing

"I just wanna apologize." Skye says.

"Don't apologize, you had no idea." I say hugging Skye.

"How are you?" Skye asks as we sit down.

"I'm okay, better now that Y/n is out of my life." I say.

"That's exactly how I feel." Skye says.

I laugh and Skye smiles.

"I wanna tell you everything, lay it all out on the table." Skye says.

"Okay." I say.

"Y/n and I were neighbors back in New Mexico. She randomly reached out and said she wanted to fly me out to LA. I had always had feelings for her so I said okay." She says.

"She said she couldn't get me from the airport for some reason— she wouldn't tell me. She got her security to pick my up and take me to my hotel. She paid for my room, walked me to it, stopped my stuff off, and got dinner." She says.

"I eventually when back to New Mexico. Then she hit me up a little later saying she wants to fly me out again. We go to a party and that's where paparazzi got pictures from." She says.

"And she proposed to me the next day." She says.

In two months, you replaced us
Like it was easy

"She proposed?!" I ask.

"Y-Yeah, I thought I had the best of the best so I said yeah. I didn't even know we were dating." She says.

"And I swear that if I knew she had a girlfriend I would've never even flew out to see her. You didn't deserve any of this and I called it quits when I found out." She says.

Made me think I deserved it
In the thick of healing, yeah

"Well, I appreciate that." I say.

"I'm a classy lady." Skye says.

I laugh and Skye smiles.

"It kinda felt like she was just it up as it went along." Skye says.

We'd always go into it blindly
I needed to lose you to find me

"That's how it was with us. It drove me insane." I say.

This dancing was killing me softly
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah

"You did it for 3 months, I did it for 1. I can only imagine." Skye says.

To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah

"Yeah..." I say.

To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah

"I think we could be good friends." I say.

To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah

"I couldn't agree more." Skye says.

To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me

Time Skip

I hand the script to Y/n and she looks up.

"I'm sorry." Y/n says.

You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it

"What?" I ask.

"I'm sorry about all of this." Y/n says.

Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn

"Sorry won't cut it this time." I say.

Sang off-key in my chorus
To love, love, yeah

"Do you have any idea what you put me through?" I ask.

To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah

"Do you have any idea what you put Skye through? The poor girl got doxxed and sent death threats." I say.

I needed to hate you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah

"I don't understand how you could do this behind my back and still lay down with me at the end of the day." I say.

To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah

"And all you have to say is, I'm sorry?" I ask.

I needed to lose you to love me
To love, love, yeah

"You don't care who you hurt. You don't ever mean the world sorry." I say.

To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah

"And I can see that now." I say.

And now the chapter is closed and done
To love, love, yeah

"I see all of it, I see who you really all." I say.

To love, love, yeah

"We keep whatever "this" is professional." I say.

To love, yeah

Y/n slowly nods and I walk away.

And now it's goodbye, it's goodbye for us

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