"So what is it that you needed to tell me, is everything alright?" She questions as she sits down on the edge of my bed.

"Yeah everything is fine, I just needed to tell you this last part but not in the public eye or you would probably freak out even more than when you did earlier."

"Okay... so what is it?"

"Alright, so the night that Chris left-"

"OH MY MJOLNIR, DID YOU GUYS do the dirty??" She whispers the last part to me as her eyes got wide, even though we were alone.

"WHAT? Gosh no, Kare get your head out of the gutter."

"Sorry, just that's how that sentence always starts out and bam someone is preggo."

"Geeze well not this time."

"You're right your not that dumb to go and do that, especially with a man who is like twenty times your age, well age really shouldn't matter, it's the maturity that does really matter in relationships and-"

"WE KISSED!"

"..."

"I'm sorry...WhAt!"

"Well...you were rambling and wouldn't let me finish what I needed to say so the only way I knew you would let me tell you were just shouting it out...Ughh." I finish, throwing myself on my bed as I start to get upset about the whole thing again.

"Heyy, I'm sorry I didn't mean to get off track." She told me softly, as she sensed how upset I was.

"Na, it's fine really-" I tell her as I sit upon the bed next to her. "- I just don't know what to do."

"What do you mean? Shouldn't you be excited or happy about it? I mean you have been into him for so long and you have your chance as I told you two years ago that you would. Even if he is twenty years older than you, oh man. You know he can basically get in trouble for-"

"Karelyn.."

"Right, right sorry... Look why don't you just talk to him and tell him how you feel? From the way you talked about the days you spent with him and how he presents himself in public, he seems so sweet and understanding."

"Ughh, he is and he is so amazing but that is the thing Karelyn. I can't because he hasn't texted me back in almost a whole damn fucking month and I just don't even know what to do..."

"You're kidding right?"

I shook my head, "No I really wish I was Kare." sadness filling my voice.

I feel her arms engulf me as I continue looking down, afraid that if I look at her the tears forming in my eyes would come out and I just can't do that right now. I cannot let myself feel weak over a guy again.

******

Tuesday, not such a great day but also not that bad as it is the day before Wednesday which is even closer to Friday.

Anyways...

Here I am stuck in 3rd-period Economics which is just two periods before lunch! You already know. Thankfully we didn't really have much to do today just classwork and we really only have about 5 minutes till the bell rings. I can't help but think about my talk with Karelyn we had two days ago and can't help to think of when she was talking about him with the possibility of getting in trouble if people find out he kissed me, be the issue of why he hasn't texted me back yet. But I might never know.

Realizing the bell had rung, I pack up all my stuff quickly and start heading to my fourth-period class. But get interrupted from my plan as I feel someone grab ahold of my arm with an all to familiar touch that causes me to tense up.

"Hey-" Justin comments as he lets go of my hand, indicating that he realized I had tensed up. "-I was wondering if we can maybe talk for just a little bit."

"I... sorry I have to get to class," I explain, trying to walk away.

"I know but we have like 7 minutes, please?"

"..."

"Fine, you get 3 minutes... I should really only give you two." I mumble the last part as I hold onto the straps of my backpack a bit tighter as we start walking towards a bench that stands next to the quad.

"Thank you, look I wanted to talk to you about... well about us."

"What 'us' Justin? That was done when you decided to cheat on me with her." I remind him, sitting towards the edge of the bench, away from him as far as possible.

"I know that-" he sighs as he shuffles a bit closer, "- and I honestly regret it till this day. I made a mistake Drea and I want to try and make it up to you if you would give me the chance."

"Are you kidding me? You should have thought of the consequences before you decided to do it...and don't call me that only my family can call me that." I told him bitterly as I stood up from the bench, ready to leave. I guess he can tell I was about to leave as he grabbed my hand to prevent me from moving.

"I know I'm asking for a lot but if you would just let me I will do anything I can to make this up to you. I promise." I can tell he was hurt by my last comment as his eyes held a bit of sadness in them. Fuck that, he didn't deserve to feel sad.

"NO, you had that chance when you were going behind my back every day to do god knows what with my 'best friend' and now you don't get any chances, I shouldn't even be letting you have the chance to talk to me right now. And. let. go. of. me." I screech at him, as I rip my hand out of his grasp and start running away from him.

I found the nearest bathroom and go inside. Locking the door behind me as I slid into the biggest stall and just drop my bag, pacing the stall trying to keep my panic attack from eating me alive. I guess I wasn't doing a great job at it as I feel my hands start to shake and hot tears streaming down my face. I just slid down against the bathroom wall as I let my sobs take over, hating how alone I was making me sob even more.

I didn't realize I was being followed until I heard the stall door open but barely paying attention to it. I hear murmuring but I'm not focusing enough to register who is trying to talk to me. I feel hands grabbing my arms gently pulling my hands down and look up to see that it was Karelyn who had followed me into the bathroom.

Its like everything was in slow motion, or in a movie as I couldn't hear what she was saying, just seeing her mouth moving and forming words. Only watching her look behind her and say something to someone not in my view, then take my phone out of my hand. That I didn't even realize I took out till now, and press on what I am guessing was the call button on a contact as she holds the phone up to her ear.

Then she looks at me with sadness in her eyes as she starts talking to someone over, but that's the last thing I see before everything turns black.