29. Staying Strong

"You're up so early?!"


Cheng Yu was surprised to see Feng Jiu eating her breakfast when she walked into her ward.


"Yes! I need to eat more and recover as soon as possible. I'll be visiting Qingti after breakfast, do you want to come with me?"


"Sure, Feng Jiu. Just tell me where you want to go, and I'll gladly accompany you. I'm glad to see that you're feeling better."


"Qingti gave me a strong motivation to keep moving forward. If something bad happened to me, who would take care of him?"


"I'm glad that you think that way, Feng Jiu."


Then she quickly finished her breakfast before leaving her ward to visit Ye Qingti.


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"Can you hear me, Qingti? If you can hear me talking, you need to recover and wake up quickly. I'll be here for you." Feng Jiu held on tightly to Ye Qingti's hands while talking to him.


The doctor told Feng Jiu that she should continuously visit Ye Qingti and also talk to him, as it might be beneficial to him.


"Feng Jiu, you're so strong." Cheng Yu looked at Feng Jiu, who was clearly looking better as compared to yesterday.


"I have to remind myself to stay strong for Qingti constantly. It's the only thing that keeps me going for now."


"I'll be here for you, no matter what happens." Cheng Yu reassured Feng Jiu.


"Thanks, Cheng Yu. I'm blessed to have friends like you." Feng Jiu smiled sweetly at Cheng Yu.


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"I want to visit Dong Hua. This could be my last time seeing him..." Feng Jiu said to Cheng Yu, after leaving Ye Qingti's ward.


"Do it, Feng Jiu. So that you won't have any regrets." Cheng Yu then pushed her towards Dong Hua's ward.


Once they were outside the ward, they noticed Dong Hua and Ji Heng together again, and Ji Heng was attending to Dong Hua's every need. Feng Jiu then quickly told Cheng Yu to hide and watch them from afar.


It looked like they were about to leave the hospital, as Dong Hua was dressed in a formal suit.


"He looks really different now... The Dong Hua that I know, he's gone forever. Let's go, Cheng Yu. I've seen enough. It's time for me to let go. He belonged to Ji Heng from the start anyway. It's my fault for wanting to spend more time with Dong Hua, and that caused Qingti to get into a coma."


Feng Jiu then gave Dong Hua one last look and left. Tears were starting to flow down from her eyes, as it pains her to see Dong Hua and Ji Heng together. Feeling hopeless, she knew that she could only move on.


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For the next couple of days, Feng Jiu had been visiting Ye Qingti a lot. She stayed by his side and always talked to him about everything, including the times that they spent together back in school.


Feng Jiu tried to numb herself from feeling the pain of losing Dong Hua. She kept herself busy to distract herself from thinking about it as well.


After almost a week of staying in the hospital, Feng Jiu was finally discharged from the hospital. Her leg wasn't fully recovered yet, and she still needed crutches to help her move around.


Feng Jiu was also given six weeks of medical leave so that she could stay home and rest. As promised, Tai Chen Group was also providing financial assistance to her. It allows her to stay home for the next few weeks, and recover from her injury without any worry. Although Feng Jiu didn't want the money, she accepted it because her savings ran out after paying Ye Qingti's bills.


Feng Jiu was dreading the thought of going back home. It would remind her of the pain all over again. Cheng Yu and Lian Song came to the hospital to fetch Feng Jiu back to her apartment.


As Cheng Yu was still having her mid-term break from school, she accompanied Feng Jiu as much as she can.


"Thanks, Lian Song. It was nice of you to drive us back, and I really appreciate your help. You can head back to work now, and I'll accompany Feng Jiu. Drive safe!" Cheng Yu thanked Lian Song after he dropped them off at Feng Jiu's apartment.


"Awww I'm so touched, Cheng Yu actually praised me. I'm going to win the lottery tonight!" Lian Song cheekily replied.


"Okay, get lost now." Cheng Yu rolled her eyes.


"Okay okay, I'm sorry. Take good care of Feng Jiu and let me know if you both need any help. I'll head off now."


Lian Song then drove back to work.


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Feng Jiu stood outside the door for a long time. She knew that it would be too painful to step into her apartment, knowing that Dong Hua wouldn't be there.


Whenever she got back from work in the past, Dong Hua would be eagerly waiting for her at the door. But now, it was in total silence.


Feng Jiu couldn't hold back her tears anymore. She opened the door and ran towards her bed, sobbing uncontrollably.


"He's gone! He's really gone, Cheng Yu! What should I do now? My heart is in so much pain!" Feng Jiu cried out loud.


"Cry it out, and you'll feel better after crying." Cheng Yu gently patted Feng Jiu on her back, trying to console her. Feng Jiu's pillow was drenched in her tears.


Feng Jiu stopped crying after a while, and her stomach started to growl.


"I'm hungry, Cheng Yu." Feng Jiu sniffed her runny nose and acted like a kid who was trying to get attention from her mother.


"I know you way too well. You're such a glutton, and only food can make you feel better. I'll go out and get you some food now!" Cheng Yu patted Feng Jiu's head.


Feng Jiu then bid Cheng Yu goodbye and went into the bathroom to wash her face.


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"I.. I can't do this...!" Feng Jiu was shaking and holding back her tears again. She noticed Dong Hua's toothbrush the moment she stepped into the bathroom, and she was reminded of everything again.


She sat down outside the bathroom's floor, with her knees folded towards her chest.


"Every little thing reminds me of Dong Hua. It's too hard...."


Soon, Cheng Yu came back after buying some food and noticed Feng Jiu sitting on the floor, in a daze.


"Omg, are you okay, Feng Jiu?!" Cheng Yu quickly ran towards Feng Jiu.


"I'm fine."


"What happened?"


"Cheng Yu, will you help me clean up together later on? I need to get rid of Dong Hua's belongings. It's too painful to see them."


"You know you can always rely on me, Feng Jiu. I'll help you get up now, and then we can start eating lunch together."


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"Mmm... This noodle tastes so good!" Feng Jiu was clearly feeling better after eating. Food never failed to make her happy.


"I knew that you would like this! Come, I'll help you clean up now. I know it's going to be hard, but you have to try to endure it until we are done with it. Don't hold back your tears if you feel like crying. I'll be here for you, at least for the next few weeks."


"Thank you, Cheng Yu. You're the best."


Feng Jiu held back her tears a few times while cleaning up. Dong Hua's smell was still around on his mattress and belongings. Feng Jiu just couldn't accept the fact that he was so gone so suddenly.


Feng Jiu and Cheng Yu were exhausted by the time they were finished with cleaning up. They laid on the sofa and starting talking.


"Do you think that this pain that I'm feeling now would ever go away, Cheng Yu...?"


"Yes, I'm sure it will. Time heals all wounds, Feng Jiu. You have to stay strong."


"I know. I'll stay strong for everyone. I need to quickly recover from my injury so that I can go back to work. Also, I'll need to work more hours so that I earn enough to pay off Qingti's hospital bills. I know that it's not going to be cheap, but it's my responsibility towards him."


"Let us know whenever you need help, Feng Jiu."


"I will. Thank you so much, Cheng Yu."


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For the next few weeks, Feng Jiu and Cheng Yu spent almost all their time together. Cheng Yu also temporarily moved into Feng Jiu's apartment.


Feng Jiu kept herself busy and tired so that she won't think about Dong Hua. They cooked a lot of food and binged watched dramas together. They also visited Qingti every other day at the hospital, and Cha Cha came to visit whenever she had time.


Feng Jiu's leg was significantly getting better. Her leg's cast was off, and she can now walk without any support.


The doctor recommends Feng Jiu to change jobs, as her current job might be too tough for her to handle now. He also told her to take it slow when she heads back to work.


It was finally time for Feng Jiu to return to work. Cheng Yu and Cha Cha were still worried about her, but they knew that they couldn't be there for her forever.


I'll force myself to forget you, Dong Hua.
I did it once, and I'm sure that I could do it again.

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