I don't know just how it happened, I let down my guard
Swore I'd never fall in love again but I fell hard
Guess I should have seen it coming; caught me by surprise
I wasn't looking where I was going; I fell into your eyes.

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"Kourtney, I'm hungry." I said.

"Go and get something to eat." She said pushing me out of Dwayne's bedroom.

"I'm running away,kourt." I yelled running down the stairs.

"Where are we running away to?" Joshua asked catching up to me.

"Dude where did you come from?" I asked.

"I was in the living room when I heard you yell that you were running away." He said.

I looked at him as if he was crazy. I didn't understand why he was trying to get me to be his friend.

" Yeah, I'm going to my room and take a nap." I said completely forgetting that I was hungry.

He looked sad but didn't say anything.

I walked back upstairs and towards my room.

I walked into my room and laid down and closed my eyes.

"Just shut the hell up, you stupid bitch!" Lamar shouted at me.

"Baby, I'm sorry! Lamar honestly... please!" I begged.

"I've had it Khloe!" He raged, pacing the floor in front of me.

Earlier on this evening Lamar had seen me talking to his team player Bryan. It was very innocent and I was honestly just talking basketball news with him; He wanted me to go shopping with Ally his wife the following week. Lamar however saw what he wanted to see... which was me flirting with another guy.

"YOUR NOTHING BUT A GOD DAMN WHORE!" He raged.

I began to sob. Lamar and I had been married for a few months. It started off amazing but the more we got to know each other the more possessive he became.

"Lamar please!" I cried. "I swear I... wouldn't do anything... behind your back!" I wept, finding it difficult to get the words out.

"It's over!" He said coldly with absolutely no feeling in his voice.

My crying only got harder on hearing his words.

"You don't... mean... that?!" I sobbed, trying to take his hand. Trying to see something of the man I thought I was falling in love with.

"Try me!" Lamar said pulling his hand away from me and barging passed me. He knocked into my shoulder as he left the room we had been arguing in and I fell to the floor in the impact.

I jumped out my sleep and cried my heart out.

"Khlo? ... Khloe, what's wrong?" I heard a soft voice from the doorway.

I looked up and saw Joshua stood there. I must of looked like shit with my mascara all down my face. I tried to talk but my crying only allowed for sharp breaths to leave me.

Joshua walked in and crouched down next to me. "Khloe take it easy." He said in a caring way.

"Lamar... finished with... me!" I cried.

I heard Joshua sigh as I wiped at my eyes. He looked at me concerned, then placed his hand on the side of my face and thumbed away a tear.

"Your too good for him Khlos... far too good." He said with a small smile.

The warmth from his hand felt electric on my skin. I looked in to his kind brown eyes. "I thought I was falling in love with him, I don't know who he is now." I said trying to steady my breathing.

"He will see sense... if he doesn't he is a Jack ass!" Joshua said holding his hand out for me to take, helping me up to my feet.

"I'm sorry I must look awful." I said trying to wipe at my face again just in case I did have big panda eyes from my make-up.

Joshua smiled at me, he towered over my average frame. "You look beautiful khloe... Are you okay?" He then asked.

I nodded. "Yeah I think so." I replied.

"Did you want to share a bowl of ice cream... or  maybe I could get you a drink?" He asked, his eyebrows high with hope.

I smiled, and swept my long brown hair over my shoulder.

"That sounds great... I wished Lamar was more like you Joshua." I said softly.

He smiled at me again. "C'mon... let's go get that drink huh?" He said placing his hand on the small of my back and escorting me out of the room.

I felt Joshua thumb gently rub against my skin as we walked. The thought then struck me that he liked me more than he should.

As I felt my heart seem to double in size I realised that maybe I liked him more than I should too.