I saw shadows that form into Little Lights...

I felt like I was drowning in the darkest and deepest ocean...

I can't see or hear, and it's hard to breathe.

I couldn't breathe.. but I could at the same time.

It was strange.

But yet.. even with my eyes closed, I make out little bits of lights...

"You're alone and always will be"

All I did was for them..

All the acting and hinting...

That painful and insufferable personality I created and made as my own.

Shuichi needed me, but in the end...
He left me...

He abandoned me.

After all my hard work!!!...

It's so sad, but it's true..

The painful truth towards me.

I feel a shock of pain.

Like electricity through my chest and heart.

It happened a few more times as I started to open my eyes slowly...

So bright...!

Kokichi's POV:

It was too bright in here.
I could hardly see anything.

My vision started to clear up, and I could see a nurse next to me.

Her chopped purpleish hair was poorly tied into a bun.

She looked at me nervously and started writing something on her clipboard.

I tried to move my hand to her but started to feel pain in my muscles.

She looked at me and walked to me in a hurry.

"Please don't move yourself.."She spoke in a gentle tone.

I moved my hand again and placed it on hers.

She looked at my hand in confusion and blushed?

"Hmm,P-please.."I struggled to let out my voice.

'My throat hurts! So dry!'

"Please not s-stress y-y-your voice!"She yelled nervously.

She ran out of the room before returning with a cup of water, helping me drink it slowly.

I tighten my grip on my hand on hers with all my strength I have.

I need someone to stay with me.

I'm scared.

So very scared.

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She had left to get me food and I already missed her company

I..

hate being alone.

It feels like the killing game again.

I'm alone again.

I hate it.

Someone... please come...

Save me...
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They had to fed me by a tube...

I hate eating...

I don't deserve to eat or live for that matter.

Everyone hates me, and it's my fault...

Even shuichi hates me...

But that's fine,I deserve it...

Huh? What's that sound?

I hear something from outside my door.

"h-hello?.."I coughed out, and I hurt my throat a bit.

"Kokichi, is that you?!"

I know that voice...

It's Kaito..

Kaito momota,the Ultimate astronaut

I tried to stay quiet due to my mistake of answering the door.

The coughing got the best of me out of fear.

"I'm coming in!" He yelled as I heard the door click.

I felt nervous and panicked.

Why would he come in?

Doesn't he hate me?

I got him killed, right?

The door opemed to see Kaito with his hair down. He looked like his hair grew out a bit.

He was in a hospital gown with a neck brace on. Maybe his sickness was real before the game...

"Kokichi? Why do you look like that?You look so different! But you look pretty cool!" He shouted well, smiling widely.

I was confused at first, but I felt... flattered by his words.

He was still a idiot..

I didn't realize he walked up to me till I felt a weight on my bedside.

Giving out a few coughs, covering his mouth with his arm.

"I haven't seen you at any of the meetings yet. You know... I kinda miss your nonsense, to be honest." He smiled and looked at me.

I blushed a bit from the odd comment. He missed me? Out of all people, me?

"W-was I b-boring?.." I feel tears fall down my cheeks.

I hope I wasn't..

He looked at me dumbfounded and frowned

"You weren't boring... Not  in the slightest.." He came closer and wiped my tears.

I cried more till I slowly moved my hand over his even if my body still was in pain.

He blushed and caressed my pale cheek gently.

"I hope you come to the meetings soon,I really do miss you, Kokichi..." He said with a sad smile.

I just cried more and more.

Someone missed me.

Someone I hurt missed me.

I don't deserve this.

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I fell asleep left with complete darkness.

I tired myself out from crying.

I saw someone in front of me.

They looked like me...?

They had my uniform from the killing game.