10 - MEDICATION

Dust took a couple deep breaths and ran to Killers room, not even bothering to knock and just running in and slamming the door behind him. The other jumped from the noise and soon a knife flew right by Dusts face and straight into the wall, being accompanied by screaming from Killer which subsided by him jumping up and over to the other worriedly.

"Holy shit! Are you okay!?" Dust panted then fixing his posture. "S- sorry, yeah I'm good." "So why'd you barge in here like someone was about to kill you?"

"Boss just fuckin kissed me" "wow- well i wasn't expecting it to be so early." "Excuse me?" "Nothing. How'd it happen!?"

"Okay so we came back from lunch, he's like buzzed and I'm currently like on the brink of being drunk because we had wine- we sit down you know, because why not. Next thing I know he pulls me into his lap and kisses me smack dab on the damn lips!"

"Damn you got yourself some octodick right there" "Killer!" "Sorry sorry." "What the fuck do I do? Do I talk to him about it? Do we I dunno hook up? Or do we just pretend it never fuckin happened???"

"Uh well depends on whether or not you like him like that." "I don't know, I don't know how emotions work man! Like I could practically be abused and not be able to tell if I hated that person or not."

"Thats- okay let's just glaze over that for now. What if you just pretend it never happened until he talks to you? But then again you may be waiting a while because boss is a very stubborn and surprisingly socially anxious monster."

"Didn't seem that way when we were at the restaurant." "He takes medication Sci gave him, how do I know? Because I snoop." "Oh really? What types?"

"Hm, anxiety, depression, adhd, and magic stabilizing meds I think. I takes quite a few." "Boss has adhd?" "Suprising, right? But yeah he does, either those meds are really strong or he's really good at masking. Currently we and well Sci of course are the only ones that know that I know of."

"Man, I wanna see boss without his medication. I know first hand how much that stuff can mute your real self so it must be pretty crazy to see the real Nightmare." "Yeah. It'd be interested to say the least."

Dust smirks. "Thats my new goal, to see boss without his meds.. When does he take them?" "I'd assume early in the morning, when he wakes up." "Hm alright, thank you!"

Dust left Killers room and went to his own to take time to himself.

After about three-ish hours of possibly a panic attack and talking to Papyrus, and also changing out of his suit, Dust made his way to Nightmares room and found the other lying in bed, focusing on taming down possibly a headache. Dust appeared next to him surprising the other and causing his tentacles to lash up for only a second.

"Oh I must be good at sneaking up on people today." "Dust why are you in my room?" "You take meds." "I- uh yes?" "What types?" "I'm not telling you this." "Please boss?"

He sighed. He couldn't handle arguing with him. "Fine, depression and anxiety, adhd, and magic stabilizing pills. I also have as needed insomnia medication." "Thats a lot." "Yes I know, please leave me alone now." "Can I see you for one day without the meds?" "What?"

"Your emotions, personality, and decisions can be muted or altered thanks to medication like that. I was wondering if I could see the real Nightmare, not some medically altered Nightmare."

"You're delusional" "I am. But please?" "I chose the wrong person to call delusional- no I need to take them."

"Why?" "Well the magic stabilizers keep me from completely melting, I have too much magic in my system thanks to an incident I had, and now my body cannot be stable without some kind of help thanks to years of abuse. And the insomnia meds help me actually get sleep, not that I need it but it does help my mind function better."

"What about just the others? You can live for one day without then right?" "I suppose, I mean, unless I get a spirt of suicidal tendencies, sure."

"What?" "Nothing. I'll take only my magic stabilizing meds in the morning, in exchange you stop asking me such personal questions, deal?" "Alright."

And thus is why Nightmare was acting strange that morning.

When Nightmare got up he took the magic stabilizing pills and that's it. He took a deep breath and continued with his day.

After a few hours of lagging from sleep he finally was awake and truly himself. He focused on writing something in the kitchen, it was too quite in his office to focus on anything. But now it felt like it was too loud.

He tried to work but he kept getting distracted with the conversations around him and couldn't work. Soon he felt a hand OK his back causing hom to jump.

"Ack! Shit!" He muttered from the unexpected touch. "Heya boss, just wonderin if you're okay." "Yes Killer I'm fine."

Out of frustration he pounded his foster on the counter and then sighed. "Okay I just need coffee." Killer just stood there somewhat dumbfounded. Perhaps Dust actually got him to go without his pills?

Nightmare poured the coffee then took sips of it. After he got through most of it he felt his body start to lag like it usually did when he drank coffee. Dust sat next to him and curled his arms on the counter then laying his head within them, looking at Nightmare who was on the verge of falling asleep.

"Boss you good?" Nightmare seemingly jumped again. He seemed finicky. His body seemed to have shook a little but as he focused on his work, well tried to. "Yeah I'm fine. Stars I knew doing this was a bad idea." "This is all because you didn't take your pills?" "I guess." "Sorry." "It's fine, I actually feel more I don't know, real? Now from not taking them. Like I'm not just a page in a story or I'm viewing my body from an outside source, I'm me."

"I get that, to a degree." Dust was about to continue but he saw Nightmare focusing on what was happening through a window, there was nothing besides flowers really.

"Did you know that there's over 400,00 types of flowers? I used to plant them as a child and read about them all of the time. I actually tended to plant them all the way up until I started spreading negativity. Still a nice hobby in my opinion. I personally always liked lavenders the most. Whenever I was burnt from the villagers as a child they would help heal those burns and ease itching feelings. Plus they're purple and honestly purple is a great colour."

Dust just say there listening intently. "You sure do like flowers a lot." Nightmare blushed, "I guess. I apologize for ranting." "It's fine, I quite enjoy it when you do. You can continue if you wish."

Throughout the day Nightmare seemed surprisingly different, he seemed to rant about everything he enjoyed, he ended up ranting about multiple of his favorite books and their ploys and lore to Dust. He zoned out a lot, sometimes in the middle of ranting ans sometimes just because the area seemed too loud or too quiet.

He also seemed to freak out when areas got too loud for him, snuggling into Dusts side when he did and was greeted by a warm hug. And when things were too quiet he woul tap or make small noises to distract himself from it.

Overall it was a strange day for everyone, but Nightmare did indeed end up taking his pills the next day and he was more muted and more put together really.

Dust enjoyed seeing the real Nightmare for a while but decided that Nightmare must have been miserable without his meds so he left him to do what he wanted.

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Was I reflecting myself onto Nightmare? Haha, maybe.

Actually not even maybe it was huge yes. This is me 24/7, however I just don't have meds to mute me. But whatever.

Also, 2 chapters in one day!? Wow! This is because I'm bored asf and don't wanna do my homework.

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